This wk has been huge, exhausting, defeating and trying. I can honestly say I have just dragged myself along....
Mon at hospital seeing chemo Dr due to an extreme rash from the chemo, constipation, extreme pain and difficulty breathing.
Tues spent hrs at hospital having full body ct scan and ultrasounds.
Wed picc line dressing and bloods - expressed some very adverse side effects from the chemo so chemo Dr sent me to the emergency department. We spent 10hrs there having extensive tests and make sure I did not have a blood clot in my body. Thankfully tests were clear, seems to be chemo is batting me round.
Thurs chemo treatment for 4hrs - lots side effects coming through and draining me.....plus already my hair is thinning a lot. The hair I'm not so worried about cause it'll grow back.... Plus I have a lot of hair as its thick.
What worries me is how sick I'm starting to feel and how tired my body is......
what worries me most is seeing Dan be superman with me, caring for me and leaving so little for himself and people giving him so little (everybody fusses over me but not him)...It breaks my heart to see his pain and fatigue.
Times are difficult and I know they will get more trying..... I just have to jeep the faith, keep fighting and NEVER give up.
"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us " Ralph Waldo Emerson
