I'm not happy!

[peanutz]

I feel down. Time seems to slow down the last couple of weeks. I am sick of waiting. I am impatient. It feels like a life time since I have known GBM but it has only been 11 months. I occassionally hope that it was just a nightmare when I wake up in the morning. I sometimes wish it is over soon.... No surprise, my partner seems to suffer the wait more than me. Two more sleeps. Fingers crossed. Remember it is not a miracle drug. Whinge Grump Cry Deal with it!!

[wombat4]

All of it does seem like a nightmare peanutz, One that we all wish we can wake up from. To be able to wake one sunny morning and its all gone, and we are back in the place we used to be. To turn to our partners and say "Jesus Christ, you will never guess the nightmare I had last night". But we wake up and unfortunately it is still with us. Never wishing it on anyone else, but wishing it wasnt with us. Good luck with the drug and the waiting Wombat4

[peanutz]

Thanks Wombat4. The wait is nearly over. I remember someone said this journey is an emotional rollercoaster ride.

[SILLY]

I think we all wish that we could get away from all this stuff and just return to life the way it was before cancer came into our lives . Sadly it doesn't happen . Take one day at a time and express any emotions that you need to ,especially here.

[Rubes1984]

Frustrations is one of the most horrible parts of dealing.with.cancer and then we often feel horrific guilt when we express how we are feeling. Never limit yourself to express yourself and just be in whatever emotion u need to be in. When waiting for tests.or results are.... Well words cannot express how painful, terrifying and real these are..... in our treatment and future treatment plans. These times can make or break us. I pray u find some peace soon. Rubes

[peanutz]

Thanks Silly and Rubes. I feel better now as the wait was over. Nurses at the new places are nice and accommodating. It's quite a blessing to find nice people who asked about our concerns and tried to address it.

[rarsie]

My daughter said the other day "do you remember what Kep my son (GBM suffer) was like before he got cancer" and my reply was "no it seems like its been here forever everything in all our lives have changed" rarsie