Not again

[Kasa]

Hi, I'm a 42 y.o, single mum who has just got my second cancer in 2.5 years. First time was cervical, now it's in my lung. I go to the doctor tomorrow to see what he is planning to do. I've had a really horrible week, my boyfriend walked out on Tuesday when I was at work. I have no family where I live, and no close friends. I can't access support services as I'm not old enough, and my kids are now expected to be my carers. How the heck do I move on???

[daniel]

hi kasa, I didnt see your blog until after i replied to my own..It kinda makes me feel a little bit selfish as it can be hard i know not having any support from friends or family.Just know that you are not alone and im hoping whatever the doctor decides to do is going to have a positive and long lasting outcome. dan

[Kasa]

Thanks Dan I'll let you know how I get on tomorrow. Feeling very anxious about it, having been there and done it all before. I didn't cope well with treatment last time and have ended up with some parts that no longer work properly which will impact rather dramatically on how the treatment goes this time.

[mg0080]

Hi Kasa Do you have family that you can move closer to? Support can make all the difference and suppost and help for your kids also. Moving is a pain I know but so is doing this alone. blessings mg

[Kasa]

Hi mg Only family I have is my dad in darwin and that just isn't a practical move. He doesn't "get" what happens. And I can't move from where I am or I will lose my kids to their father.

[Kasa]

So I saw my doctor a week ago. The cancer is looking and behaving as though it is a primary cancer. The biopsy is saying it's secondary. My brain stopped working at that point in the conversation. As far as I can work out I'll be damned regardless of whether I go ahead with treatment or not. The side effects of treatment will be the inability of being able to swallow and possibly the loss of my voice. Bearing in mind that my bowel and bladder and kidneys don't work properly any more the impact of treatment will make things much much worse. Tried doing some searching on the net but there is nothing much for young lung cancer patients. Most of them are already dead.

[Kasa]

So I saw my doctor a week ago. The cancer is looking and behaving as though it is a primary cancer. The biopsy is saying it's secondary. My brain stopped working at that point in the conversation. As far as I can work out I'll be damned regardless of whether I go ahead with treatment or not. The side effects of treatment will be the inability of being able to swallow and possibly the loss of my voice. Bearing in mind that my bowel and bladder and kidneys don't work properly any more the impact of treatment will make things much much worse. Tried doing some searching on the net but there is nothing much for young lung cancer patients. Most of them are already dead.