Well now it is happening and i feel like I should not be here right now, writing this I mean, but I am and it is real. There, I have said it and I feel better, I think.
My 14 year old boy will not talk to me about this and I completely understand, he is a loving and caring son as usual but will not talk about the cancer. My 12 year old is coping well, or is he. I feel so blessed that my boys give hugs and kisses as usual and are making life seem so normal.
I have no husband as he walked when the boys were babies, never went looking for anyone and do not have a partner. It has always been just the three of us. I will not leave my boys and will fight to stay whatever is thrown at me.
I know one thing for sure and we all have the same goal, we will survive.
