Not sure where to start... it's been an emotional first half to the year with very high high's and very low low's.
3rd February - my darling proposed
4th March - appedicitis - ultrasound also revealed a 'lesion' on my left kidney
5th March - appendix removed
6th March - found out we were 4wks pregnant (had been trying for 5 months)
7th March - MRI
8th March - Results of scan showed an 11cm growth
13th March - radical left nephrectomy (pathology = T3 Chromophobe RCC weighing in at 715g)
17th March - home & in recovery
9th April - miscarriage
24th May - back to work (child care centre manager) and told by employer that i shouldn't book annual leave any time soon as I'd already had a lot of time off.
8th July - left my job - couldn't cope with the stress and high expectation
I feel like my life has fallen apart. I don't recognise myself anymore. Physically I'm OK but I find myself feeling overwhelming sadness every now and again.
We just found out we're 5wks pregnant again and I'm wracked with worry about whether something will go wrong. I can't help but worry that the cancer will return too.
As many people have told me, I know I'm lucky... things could be so much worse.
I just wanted to say it helps to read other's blogs to put things in perspective. Thank you! :)
Cancer Council NSW would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians of the land on which we live and work.We would also like to pay respect to elders past and present and extend that respect to all other Aboriginal people.