im having one of those days where u feel like the world seems like a horrible place 😞 last night my partner told me he didnt go to the sperm bank and hes not going to.. i feel like my dreams of having kids one day arnt as important to him.. i look at all my friends getting engaged, buying houses it seems so unfair that we have to deal with this right now.. i feel like half my friends dont bother talking to me anymore. I want this year to be steady, treatment seems to be working so far, but he still has surgeries and that scares me.. im sick and tired of worrying about life it seems overwheelming! 😞