venting

[maddie86]

i just am writing this because i feel the need to vent! i get so jealous when my friend are talking about their happy lives, making future plans with their partners.. how can i do that when my partner has cancer? i knw i should be happy for them but i feel so down and depressed latley seeing other people happy only makes me feel worse.. i actually like it when other people have problems. Isnt that horrible of me? i just wish my life was back to the way it used to be.. id give anything! 😞

[#2]

I’m sure we have all felt similar Maddie. Why are other people happy when my world is falling apart. Don’t feel guilty, you are just being honest and experiencing a rollercoaster of emotions. That’s why this site is so great, you get to vent without any judgements. I hope there is good news on the horizon for you and your partner. In the meantime, write, express your feelings, you may find some relief in your expression. Take care. Reindeer

[maddie86]

thanks 🙂 he only had his second round of chemo not long ago.. he has agressive cancer but he's young so we're hoping things will be ok... it just a big waiting game

[#4]

Hi Maddie, I'm very sorry to hear the news about your loved one. I've been through the cancer battle with my husband and know how you feel about everything and everyone their lives seem to be great where as mine felt like the earth had been ripped away from under my feet. I lost my husband in October 09. So now i'm dealing with the emotions that go up and down like a roller coaster ride each day. But if you would like to chat drop me a line and I'd be happy to share thoughts with you. Wishing you both the very best through this difficult time. Lisa

[aussieboone]

I am truly sorry to hear what you are going through but you are not alone. My wife was diagnosed in February & 5 month's down the track things are not good, unfortunately all treatment has stopped due to the aggressive nature of this horrible desease. My wife has 3 brain tumours, breast andrenal gland & the kidney which is where it all started. All we can do is take one day at a time.

[choc2rule]

Hey Maddie Venting is good. If you didnt you would probably explode in an unpleasant way. Try and just go with your emotions. This is the greatest shock you have received and you can never plan how you will act or be when faced with that most scariest of words-CANCER. Your friends will only see what is happening to you and your partner from the outside-they will have no idea what you are experienceing inside. You of course want life to be great and happy as we all do but unfortunately for this time being it is very sad and frustrating and you will have so many different emotions to confront. YOu have no control at the moment so dont try to be strong. Vent here is you have no where else or maybe there is one friend who can really just be there for you. You are not alone Maddie although you may definately feel that right now. This site is for you. Write when you can. Margaret

[maddie86]

thanks guys.. it does help to know other people have been and survived what ive been thru... its just shit. theres no other word for it!