Hi meaghan, That's sad news to hear that your dad is in hospital. I hope he fights through it ok and you take care of yourself in this tough time. My dad is going into round 2 this week, he hasn't has his bloods yet but seems to be fine. He says he's actually feeling better, I'm hoping the chemo will work. Hope that with your dad in hospital he's in the right place getting the best care he needs right now.
I'm ok today. I was feeling very sad on the weekend. I also have 2 older brothers one has mental health issues, major depression and doesn't work and the other has learning difficulties and works but needs care too. Dad is providing the majority of this care now, and I will step in if dad isn't feeling up to it, which is a bit of extra pressure. So far so good on the chemo... He has a scan in 5 or 6 weeks to see if it's working. If I get on with my life I sometimes feel guilty like should I be spending more time with him or doing more for him.. But I'm doing the best I can. And working too.
I've seen a counsellor 3 times so far which helps. Also if i'm feeling really sad I try to distract myself with a funny movie, and I'm walking every day to keep my mind clear and I do yoga once a week. I have so much worry the counsellor has said to tell myself to have a day off from worry, sounds funny but I'm gonna try and give it a go. Just to shut off all the thoughts about what ifs, and the uncertainty.
I hope you have found some good coping mechanisms too, it's such a hard time.
