Hello,
I've just joined this site, as I'm having a very difficult time. I live in Melbourne. My sister was diagnosed last April with advanced lung cancer. She lives in England. I have been through many emotions since then. Last October I went to England to spend 2 weeks with her. I hadn't seen her for 7 years. She was expected to live appx 12 months.
I went to a couple of chemotherapy sessions with her. We talked and talked every day. We had never talked like that before. On Christmas day, I got news that she is deteriorating rapidly - she is not eating, is losing weight, and has no energy. I am preparing myself to fly out as soon as possible. I have been feeling very anxious this past 2 days, and am afraid I am losing my mind. I feel so afraid of just about everything. My sister is 62. I believe she will not live much longer. At the same time I can't believe it. I can't imagine her not being here anymore. My parents both died when I was very young, but they died suddenly. I have never been in this position before.
I am afraid of going crazy and being no use to anyone. I look forward to meeting people who understand.
jo - marg
