Why?

[Marjorie]

May first post, I'm nervous.

'Why? Why did I get cancer? Why have I survived. (So far). Is it because there are more things I need to do? Why me, why did I survive (Merkal skin Cancer) when my neighbour died from the same cancer? She was a beautiful soul. I ask the Universe these questions frequently. Maybe the answer will come one day, maybe not. I will keep searching. Thankyou for reading, Marjorie.

[Steven]

Hi Marjorie, firstly a huge welcome to our group.

A very good question indeed and one which I too have asked and continue too ask.as I continue on my journey as I call it.

After my episodes with Malignant Solitary Fibrous Tumours, I have not been able to find an answer, I think maybe I have a purpose to fulfil which as yet is undefined and yet to be clearly revealed. 

Keep asking your questions Marjorie, look for reasons and in the meantime enjoy each and every moment you have been given as each one is precious.

For me it is time I get to spend with loved ones, my friends, gardening, writing, exploring places I haven’t seen, revisiting my childhood favourite places, rekindling old friendships building new ones, there is just so much to see and do. I have been giving this time and I am using it as best I can.

You are not alone.

Warm regards Steven

[Marjorie]

Thanks for the welcome, Steven.

I like your ideas, especially revisiting your favourite childhood places. Enjoy your journey.

I've started writing my memoir and will be looking for any themes which may help.

Cheers, Marjorie.

[annainsydney]

Hi, I recently celebrated my 9th year in remission post treatment from stage 2b double primary ovarian & uterine ca, but I still could very much relate to that feeling of “survivor’s guilt”.  While I’ve lost 3 of my chemo classmates/close friends (and might be losing another soon as she struggles through a recurrence & spread), I’m here and alive.  I’m deeply sorry for others, but at the same time, I’m also filled with gratitude.  For me, it was a very humbling journey and it would be a waste if I don’t make the most of my “bonus round” in this borrowed life.  I realised that my purpose is not just to live for oneself, but more for others ~ serving in any way I can and encouraging hope are making my new life more meaningful.

[Marjorie]

Thanks for your comments. Yes, I agree about serving other people as well as looking after oneself. I'm writing my life story and if I ever get around to publishing it I hope it will help someone on their journey. All the best. Marjorie

[Megan]

I ask the same question - why? Is it some kind of karma coming back?
I hope you continue to be cancer free.

[Marjorie]

Hi Megan, I never thought of karma, good point. Getting cancer was a huge wake up call for me. I'm more aware of looking after myself and contemplating the meaning of life. All the best as you travel your journey. Cheers, Marjorie.

[Megan]

Thank you.

[chrishayward]

Hi Margorie, I have often thought of the WHY, I was diagnosed with stage 3c Ovarian Cancer 5:5 years ago, I have been given the green all clear light, like you I had  become friends with many of the women fighting this cancer and over the years slowly hearing the numbers dwindling., they were all gorgeous souls,may they Rest In Peace. I don’t know why I’m still here, like you and others but I haven’t wasted that time. I do a lot of voluntary work one is talking to other women going through OC helping alleviate their fears and just being there, I also joined our local SES which has so many avenues open, I now work part time doing my husbands book etc, I’m quite content to stay in my beautiful tranquil home, garden, play & walk my very active pup together with and all the other duties that go with running a home. We now travel a bit more, I am thankful everyday I’m still here, at time my body aches from the effects left by the chemo, but I can live with that, I remember an old saying about WHY “because it’s a crooked letter and can’t be straightened” . One thing I have learnt is to be kind to yourself . Do what you can do, tomorrow is another adventure. 

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@Marjorie wrote:

May first post, I'm nervous.

'Why? Why did I get cancer? Why have I survived. (So far). Is it because there are more things I need to do? Why me, why did I survive (Merkal skin Cancer) when my neighbour died from the same cancer? She was a beautiful soul. I ask the Universe these questions frequently. Maybe the answer will come one day, maybe not. I will keep searching. Thankyou for reading, Marjorie.

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[Marjorie]

Thanks for your comments. My Mum used to say "Y's a crooked letter and Z's no better" I'm guiltly of saying it myself. I love the 'do what you can do, tomorrow is another adventure.'  All the best. Marjorie