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3 weeks ago I lost my beautiful partner Goran to pancreatic cancer.
He rode the pain rollercoaster for 3 years and 3 months. No person should have to endure what he went through.
Drs promised his death would be peaceful and no pain. This wasnt to be... .
Everything went downhill very quickly at the end.
I am one minute beside myself with grief and the next minute numb and in disbelief.
To go from caring for him 24/7 to being alone is terrible.
I know grief is different for everyone but when will this pain become bearable???
Hi BJO67,
I'm very sorry for your loss. There is a big void after loosing someone you're looking after 24/7.
You asked when will the pain become bearable.... My thought's on that may come across as a bit harsh, but, they're not meant to be...... I think you will only start to begin healing when you decide to get on with living. Unfortunately, when someone dies, the world keeps going. Everything keeps moving, & you need to as well. I'm not saying you can't spend time grieving, but don't dwell on the grief. Let it come & happen as it needs to, then move on.
You have my best wishes.
Budgie
Hi BjO67,
When you focus all that energy into one single purpose and your life enjoyful evolves around it - the sudden loss of that devoted mission is usually emphasize by the love that was lost. As budgie previous mentioned - time and routine are your friend. The pain will ease and attachment will succeed through to memories.
Let us know how your going?
Thankyou.
I am trying to keep busy with the day to day things....
Im due to start back at work the first week of Nov. I have mixed feelings about that.
I work in a hospital and feel quite traumatised by hospitals at the moment.
Will just have to see how things go....
Hi BJO67,
Still a few days to go to get comfortable with the general idea, by any chance is a temporary change in department possible? Or perhaps working in a more professional format will provide a much needed distraction or comfort?
Probably not unfortunately...
I just need to find a job outside of a hospital setting.
In the meantime ........
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