3 weeks ago I lost my beautiful partner Goran to pancreatic cancer.
He rode the pain rollercoaster for 3 years and 3 months. No person should have to endure what he went through.
Drs promised his death would be peaceful and no pain. This wasnt to be... .
Everything went downhill very quickly at the end.
I am one minute beside myself with grief and the next minute numb and in disbelief.
To go from caring for him 24/7 to being alone is terrible.
I know grief is different for everyone but when will this pain become bearable???
I'm very sorry for your loss. There is a big void after loosing someone you're looking after 24/7.
You asked when will the pain become bearable.... My thought's on that may come across as a bit harsh, but, they're not meant to be...... I think you will only start to begin healing when you decide to get on with living. Unfortunately, when someone dies, the world keeps going. Everything keeps moving, & you need to as well. I'm not saying you can't spend time grieving, but don't dwell on the grief. Let it come & happen as it needs to, then move on.
You have my best wishes.
When you focus all that energy into one single purpose and your life enjoyful evolves around it - the sudden loss of that devoted mission is usually emphasize by the love that was lost. As budgie previous mentioned - time and routine are your friend. The pain will ease and attachment will succeed through to memories.
Let us know how your going?
I am trying to keep busy with the day to day things....
Im due to start back at work the first week of Nov. I have mixed feelings about that.
I work in a hospital and feel quite traumatised by hospitals at the moment.
Will just have to see how things go....
Still a few days to go to get comfortable with the general idea, by any chance is a temporary change in department possible? Or perhaps working in a more professional format will provide a much needed distraction or comfort?
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