Diagnosed today

[#1]

Hi Inga, That is really good news about the results of your mamogram. Having a lump in your breast can be really frightening & the waiting is the worst. I'm 33 & have had 3 lots of biopsys for breast lumps due to the history in my family, my mother has just come home from hospital for the second time in 10 years battling breast cancer & her sister, my Aunty has also had breast cancer so i have to have every lump checked out. Having said that most lumps in the breast turn out not to be cancer but it is important to have them checked out right away because early detection can save your life. I'm not sure how old you are but maybe you could ask to have regular mamograms to ease your mind a little, they are not much fun but well worth it for the peace of mind it brings. Butterfly    

[Quijote]

enough cannot be said about getting any lumps checked out for men and women. I have no history of it at all, same for family, but if I did not get my lump in the place where it came up (armpit) which made it obvious, then who knows what my chances would have been.  

[inga]

Hi there.. Next week I got an another doctors appointment, I hate this seeing one and going to next and next and next and next. They just sending me back and forth all a time. Next Monday I see an another one, who is supposed to get me to hospital Operation, to get the pea cut out. If I hade a knife myself, sharp enough, I would cut it out myself. Its just under the skin, and not deep inside. See I'm getting a bit frustrated here. I want action, right now... I took few days of last week, took my car to South Coast rented a beach front cabin, walked on a beach and collected my thoughts, or actually running away for a few days. I feel calmer now, talked with waves, scrreamed my lungs out, asked fullmoon for support, cryed my eyes out,,, It helpt to get this extra angst out.. Huh, Zeech I feel stronger now. What ever happens next, let it happen, and I'm just floating with the waves, no more resistance.... Acceptance I think its called.

[inga]

Ooops, computer did show my post twice..

[#5]

The waiting is the worst. The thoughts that go through your mind are hard to push away sometimes no matter how positive you are. I learnt that its okay to have all these thoughts & worries, its only natural when you are facing the possibility of cancer. I have done my fair of crying and screaming over the last 2 years & sometimes its good to get it out. Good luck with your next doctors visit.

[Quijote]

the waiting is definitely tough, even now between cycle 1 &2 I am getting some anxiety about the mid program scan to see if its had any effect. But you know what, I am also finding it interesting living each day as if I had a few more. In some ways quite liberating and other fears are put in perspective.

[Kate]

Inga, The waiting is the worse time I agree. Trust me I have been down this path many times as you just want it to happen get it over with so you can get on with life. I think the beach front shack was good. It is important to be in touch with nature and get your thoughts and strength together for whatever lies ahead. Wishing you the best of luck and my prayers are with you.

[inga]

 Hello all, Sorry if I dont talk too much personally... It is Monday, saw my specialist today, got me booked to hospital, to have my CYST removed. He said at its a cyst. Hoo haa,, I feel GOOD. He got me in on Friday the 13th. Lucky day...... In local anaesthetic, that sounds good, ja... I can breathe again.. I feel kind of quilty, at things sounds good, and getting all support from you guys. I hope at they wont find anything else, and it is only a cyst. ... As soon I know, I will you know. My deepest Love to you all..

[Quijote]

Thats great news and Im happy for you. Now you have to move on, maye not forget the rest of us, but definitely move on with your life. BTW, my hairs starting to fall out, good sign? I can only imagine them cancer cells are also suffering. - Die you bastards!

[inga]

Quijote...I know at you feel shit about me, so do I...At least your treatment is starting to work, I agree, "die you bastards cells". It is good to get angry and let it out.I'm not forgetting anything, I still have a gray cloud hovering over my head. Nothing is certain until that cyst of mine has been diagnosed. I was trying to fit in to these new shoes, and I'm not the same anymore, thats for sure. I got a new understanding, love for a life, and nicer personality, that may or may not shine to outside world, but a drop in a Ocean makes the Ocean when there is many enough. All my love to you..