Hi Phil,
Thank you for your kind thoughts. I hope Claire's surgery went well too.
I've had 4 doses of radiotherapy now. Started last Thursday. On Friday the session was particularly long. The machine stalled during treatment and they had to wait for the software to re-boot. That night my neck felt really itchy, hot and then burning. Satuday morning I went to a few different plaSaw the ces to get some cream but not much use as the Chemist didn't want to recommend anything as it depended on what the hospital said I could use. I finally found some MooGoo cream that helped. I was anxious about the rest of the treatment. Monday was fine. The Radiotherapists said it was very early to be having any effects from the Radiotherapy. Saw the Professor yesterday after 4th treatment. Asked him if I could have been overdosed on Friday. He told me it was impossible for that to happen. Had no after effects last night either so I'm not sure what to believe. My appointments are around 2.00p.m. in the afternoon which is a horrible time of the day. My anxiety wastes most of the day until the treatment and by the time I get back home, most of the day has disappeared.
I cannot imagine getting through the next 5 weeks and 1 day! The machine has to be serviced next week so all appointments have to be shifted to before 8.00a.m. or after 5.30p.m. I've asked for early mornings as that would suit me greatly.
I'm going to start buying magazines to take to the Radiotherapy waiting room to donate. All the magazines there are very old and well thumbed. The pages tell me about the many people who sat in the same waiting room over the years, flicking their anxiety away through the pages.
This part of the journey feels very isolating and sad. I don't want anyone else to come with me as I think it will waste so much of their time and it's unnecessary for two people to have to endure this. It may change if I get too tired but for now I prefer to do it on my own. On my way in on the hour long journey, I see houoses for sale near the hospital and think I will buy one if I win Tattslotto this week. It would be nice to be close enough to the hospital to walk there.
In the midst of me thinking sadly about myself, my eldest daughter called to say she'd been hit from behind on the freeway and her car was a write off. That snapped me back to attention. Thankfuly, she walked away from the accident without a scratch. I could not imagine having to deal with anything worse than that at this time. Yes, thank you, I am grateful. Things could be so much worse so suck it up princess and deal with what you have to do right now to get through this.
I hope you're doing well Phil. I know we'll all have good and bad days. I hope yours will be all good ones and will keep you in my thoughts throughout this journey.
