In June 2017 I was told iI have 12 months to live, this has taken the very core of my esteem out of me, I have a wife of 40 yrs and now I have to make sure she will be ok and have a roof over her head without rent, I have little money but am buying a house, I have to get it painted and sell it to downsize, I have organised my funeral, my family are estranged so it's only my wife and me, she care for me the best she can as I know her world has been turned upside down, does not talk about it but will make food and look after me, I am not disabled and cam walk do chores but I feel very depressed and just can't understand this very big nightmare which has darkened my door, I'm scared and just don't know what to do or who will care to talk to me, I am not after sympathy but just have some friends so I can share my problems with, I am very proud of my wife but I know she is devestated but I just don't know how to show support, everyday I feel like that I am living a total nightmare and just can't get it out of my mind, my life feel like I am on a slide downward and I just can't stop it. I'm scared and very lost.
