I have a date for surgery. 9 sleeps 😳. I am scared witless! I was keeping it together pretty well, but today - oh my goodness. I'm shaking, crying, can't walk in a straight line, it's hard to breath and I can not see reason ( my husbands words). Is it anxiety? I'm freaking out people, sorry but I don't have anyone to blurt this out to.
Sounds like anxiety to me. I think it's pretty normal.
I was quite anxious one or two weeks out from surgery. I was questioning if having surgery was really that good an idea. Perhaps I should cancel it?
There was no logic to my thoughts, but just anxiety around how huge this situation was.
What helped was talking about it with my partner and medical professionals. Perhaps the cancer cancer helpline can help you with this.
What surgery are you having if you don't mind me asking?
Oh, and good luck!!
I am having a lesion/growth removed from behind my oesophagus. They don't know what type it is yet bec they haven't been able to do a biopsy. If they can't get it out, I will go back and they will remove the oesophagus too.
I used to be able to talk about it all like it was happening to someone else, but as they day approaches I find that I can't do that
Yes, I think that, emotionally, these sort of traumatic events get harder to deal with over time.
What has worked for me when dealing with trauma is to talk about it. Find a therapist or a reliable friend (husband?) and talk about what is happening.
As the surgery time approaches you will get anxious. I think that everybody does this.
But know that you are in good hands.
I firmly believe your surgery anxiety is a manifestation of the unknown. It’s like your first day at school, first day at a new job, first date. They’re all a bit scary, until it’s done & dusted. These surgeons do it day in and day out, but for you it’s an unknown result unknown experience in an unfamiliar environment. Very very scary.
keep us updated with dates and results. Your not alone, we are here, thinking about you & your family, holding your hand all the way.
I won’t wish you good luck, you don’t need it. Everything is going to be fine.
take care.....Lindsay (pNETs patient)
Yep, that’s for sure, Jubbly. We are here for one another, a shoulder to cry on, or a laugh at the never ending ridiculous things that pop up, from time to time, for cancer patients.
Take care & don’t worry.
when I read your post I had a little smile.. it seemed like you could be the one performing the surgery in 9 sleeps time.... If you are, then I too would be scared witless. LOL. But I assume you are about to be the patient who has a great surgeon who knows exactly what he is doing. The sooner it is out the quicker you can move on to the next step... getting on with the rest of your life. I had surgery last month. I was lucky my surgeon had a cancellation and moved me forward by 5 days. The waiting and the anxiety and the fear of the unknown the negative thoughts "what if" the positive ones "I can beat this" and everything in between. Sometimes it just feels like you are on a rollercoaster ride and you are in the front seat. We are the lucky ones, please don't worry about the things you are powerless to change. I have a good feeling that you are going to be just fine. Big hug and lots of love I'm sending to you. XXX
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