Hi, sorry you are going thru this, but maybe my story might help. 18 months ago I was a fit 66 year old, used to either walk or run at least 10 ks every day. Then I was diagnosed with stage 4 bowel cancer. All sorts of thoughts go thru your head, I know that I thought that my days were coming to an early end. So to the treatment part of my story, first I had a bowel resection, luckily no colostomy bag. Then I had 4 rounds of chemo, not the nicest thing to go thru but needed. As the mets had spread to my liver, I then had to have a liver resection, which meant that I lost half my liver. That operation was very hard to recover from but my thoughts were that tomorrow I will feel better than today. Another 4 rounds of chemo that ended last December. Tomorrow I will have a ct scan to see what happens next. My thinking is that a diagnosis of cancer is not an automatic death sentence, if you think positive you have a better chance of getting thru . As for me, I now walk at least 8 ks every day, I feel just as good as before the cancer and am hopeful that I, with the great medical and nursing help that I had will have a few more years on this planet. Keep positive and keep writing your blogs, I would like to know how you get on. Cheers Dave