Hey There
Cancer is pretty insidious. It's a physical assault, but it also attacks you emotionally, psychologically and even socially. But yeah, learning to live with uncertainty is one of the worst things about it (and strongest lessons - I mean, in life, we - none of us - have surety or certainty, but we should all live like we do).
Another joyous little treasure in the basket of fun that is cancer ... is that the treatment can be as bad as the disease.
They do these 3 month scans, but the inflammation and nerve damage gives a pretty high rate of false positives.
I personally did my 3 month scan and was devastated to get an "inconclusive" result. I felt for sure, in my heart of hearts, that the treatment had not worked.
I was wrong. Re-scanning later ... all clear.
BUT
Then you move on to different types of uncertainty - like the fear of recurrence.
You get the all clear, then live with a concern that it's coming back (each year after treatment the odds stack more and more in your favour, but it's going to be a rest-of-life concern).
So yeah .. learning to live with anxiety, uncertainty, and find ways to make the most of the time and capabilities left to you .. that's a big part of it.
