Hi Jade
The prognosis so far is good. And the further I get from treatment, statistically speaking, it's improving.
I come to terms with it early. Just accepted that if my number is up, that's it. Surprisingly enough, it wasn't good enough for the people around me. I kind of stopped living for myself and set my goals on being here for them. That was my mental fight against cancer and it was an easy win.
With that said, surviving the treatment was its own battle. Chemo was cruel and kept sending me to hospital. My body didn't cope with it. The outcomes of surgery are a constant reminder of what I went through. Although I consider myself lucky compared to what others have gone through. So I try not to play the pity violin too much. I focus on doing things that make me happy and try to put the past behind me. Quite optimistic for a long future, but certainly not taking it for granted. I don't my head will let me.
I suppose you are now on a major roller-coaster with your latest news. When you try to think of something supportive to say to people in your situation, you get a lot of repetitive and polite sentiment. I've been on the receiving end of that and I kind of think it's funny to watch people dance around their own tongues. So I'll just be blunt. That really socks! I don't know you very well, but I am saddened to learn of your worsening condition. Reach out any time you want to beat up on life, fairness or consequence. If it helps, I could write you a poem.
Take care
Phil
