Hi all, I am new and have been reading through a few posts. I am hearing the fear and uncertainty so I thought I would log on to try and give you some encouragement. This is the first time I have ever done anything like this, so I hope I do it right.
I just want you all to know, that miracles do happen. I know, because I have had at least 1.
I have cervical cancer for the 3rd time lucky.
The 1st time I had a radical hysterectomy, the second time I had chemo and radiation, and the current,3rd time I had chemo. Currently this tumour is dormant.
The 2nd time I was diagnosed my tumour was 10cms x 8 cms in my abdomen. It had adhered to my intestine, bladder, etc., etc. Basically they could not remove it surgically at all even though they tried. I decided not to be upset, even at times when I felt low. I would put a smile on my face and fake it. (it actually worked sometimes)Eventually, too many people, (mainly nursing staff) were dropping hints that I was way too happy, under the circumstances. Later I realised that they thought I was in denial. To a degree, I suppose I was, but only due to the fact that at the time I didn't know exactly how bad I was, just that I was pretty bad.
Call me blaze', but I believe I had 9 lives, hence the "cat" in my user name. Unfortunately I also seem to have an awful lot of bad luck, hence the "Khan" bit, after Genghis Khan. For anyone not familiar with the old saying that if you have a lot of bad luck apparently you killed a person of Chinese descent in a previous lifetime. I have so much of it that at one point in my life I was nicknamed Genghis Khan. LOL.
Anyway, my point is. When I cornered my oncologist (the best in the world, or so I think, awesome man) and asked him how long I had, he reluctantly mumbled maybe 3 months. I was also told, that even if my cancer did go, I would always have the tumour. Well, after months of chemo, then months of radiation and chemo, I was not only still alive, but cancer and tumour free. What did my oncologist say, and I quote "It's a miracle!" at which point, he proudly took my scan and raced down the corridor, showing it to all and sundry. That was 2 years ago.
So for all of you who may be feeling disheartened, scared, sad and/or angry, that is ok, we have cancer, we are allowed to feel that way.
and......miracles do happen.
May the Angels keep you all safe.
Khan the cat.
