I'm already nuts, & it's driving me insane! It's called chemo brain.
I tell you, it's so frustrating when you're trying to think of the word you want to say & it just won't come. Or the words just come out completely the wrong way around. Mind you, what eventually comes out can be quite funny .
Sorry to hear you have chemo brain. Luckily, I won't have to experience that. 7 Radiotherapy treatments completed and 23 to go. What a slog that is! Every day. I'm so impatient for this part to be over. I'm struggling to fill my days right now. I haven't made any beads, not finishing the quilt I was working on. Feeling a little bit of futility. Why do anything? Nothing I want to see on television, no books I desperately want to read. Endlessly cleaning. Anxiety is high. Can't relax. Struggle to make it to 9pm so I can go to sleep. I guess it must be part of the process of acceptance and dealing with the current situation. I don't want to see anyone or talk to anyone either. Listening to audio books while I work cleaning. At least it is filling my mind with something other than cancer. I guess it's just a matter of getting through the next 5 weeks. Appointment times this week are earlier in the day - before lunch - rather than around 2pm which means you lose the whole day waiting to go to treatment.
Hopefully, I'll feel better once the weather warms a little and Spring arrives. I can work in the garden then and enjoy some better times.
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