Yes, we're still here. I was diagnosed with tumour & mets to lymph nodes, stage iv, in July 2013. Had Radiation, then 6/12 chemo. CT scans show tumour much reduced. Lucky with chemo, mainly just fatigue, no nausea. Will now remain on chemo via PIC line, to be monitored every 3/12. This site is quite helpful, there are others, ex UK & USA - some better than others, so search around. It is definitely scarey, what stage are you? Sorry you're chemo is making you feel bad - don't hesitate to discuss this with yr oncologist - if you've had radiation, that cld be the cause.
Do use this site to vent feelings/thoughts you're not yet ready to share in person. We've all been there, and plsd to help you cope with this catastrophe. Wishing you all the best.