Hi Hel
I am sorry to read that your husbands prognosis is not good and i understand you wanting to help him cope with how he is feeling but I have to say it is still only a few days since he was told the sad diagnosis and he needs to get his head around being told he may not survive this illness.
You obviously love and care for him very much just like my husband did me but the realty is we take out our anger and frustrations on those closest to us in effect pushing you away. We know how much we are hurting,struggling to get through each day , each treatment and we watch how much the people caring for us do, to try and make the journey through treatment more bearable but we still have anger and regrets on how our own bodies have let us down.
We have lost the choices on how we occupy our days with the regular trips to the hospital for treatments and we have also impacted our new regime onto others and feel we do not have choices in our lives anymore.
When you a problem eating it becomes quite frustrating always being asked if you want something or being told you need to eat, we know deep down that we need to but it becomes such an unpleasant experience. I remember saying to my husband that if i ever get to eat properly again I wouldn't take it for granted but I can eat properly and guess what I take it for granted. I am always living with a time bomb as I have a very high chance of it returning
within 5 yrs and I have been told that if it does my chances of survival will not be good and that is for a cancer that has a low survival rate anyway.
He will fight this battle his own way and the only way he can and unfortunately despite all your caring it may not be the way you want him to. Just be there for him and then you know you gave him the best care you can. He still needs to be able to make some choices in his life and they may not be the ones you want him to but whatever the outcome you will know you were there for him.
I think the job of being a carer to someone you love and watching them suffer is harder than being the patient and my thoughts are with you.
hope I have not come across to you in a negative way but hopefully this has given you a little insight into his possible thoughts.
Kas
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