This journey has destroyed my confidence. I’m scared all the time, lost, uncertain and afraid. I wake up stressed and it continues through out the day. Everyday tasks make me want to break down and cry. I don’t know what’s happened to me. I just want it to be over, I want to be over… If this is life then whats the point.
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Thank you so much. I finally finished chemo and feel so much better. Wanted to give up everything so many times but I’m glad I sucked it up and got on with life. Dr says I’m all clear, regular test every 3 month and NO MORE CHEMO, yay!!!
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Hi Cindi. So far so good. 8 days until I finish chemo. Still working somehow, it’s been a struggle. Gained some weight, doctors are happy with my progress. It’s still difficult to get out of bed, but I just do it. Still can’t do the things I used to do, tired all the time. Im coping okay, just surviving. Thanks for the love and support, how’s all your stuff going? PS really scared that it might come back…
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You are going to feel all the emotions. The beginning of this journey sucks, but it’s not the end. Once you make it to the other side you will be so much stronger. Focus on that light at the end of this train ride. Set yourself a goal, Maybe a holiday, new cloths to wear whatever you like, some think to look forward to. Its okay to be scared, just don’t let it be the new you.
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Stay strong man, cancer f$&king sucks. Eat healthy, exercise, don’t do drugs, don’t smoke, don’t drink, keep it clean. I’m 6 1/2 months in, almost finished my chemo. The pain is real. David Goggins it, stay hard!!!
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I wish I could tell you other wise but it’s going to be the hardest moments of your life. You need to be there for her every step of the way. Cancer caregivers are amazing so don’t hesitate to ask them anything no matter how trivial. High dependency care after surgery is a nightmare. Chemo sucks and feels never ending, it helps to chew gum for the hangover feeling. Drink lots of bottled water, rain water is a no go. Theres going to be lots of crying and depression so prepare your self, try to be strong for her and yourself. If she’s got heath insurance use it, get that organised asap. How old is your mum? Im sorry to be so negative but it’s the truth and it sucks. I’m living that nightmare. Also there are good days, it takes time but it does get better.
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Hi Adriana. Life has a way of kicking you when your down. Physically, mentally and financially. 3 biggest hurdles to climb. I feel your pain and know the struggle. You shouldn’t be going through this at your age. Chemo is a bitch, waiting is a bitch, not knowing we happens next is a bitch. Try to stay strong, I know it’s not easy. Best wishes💪❤️💪
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Thank you Isadora. I don’t know what else to say, today I feel drained and empty. Hard to concentrate. Hopefully I’ll be in remission with you soon. I’m happy your doing well. Quality of life is so important, I want that so bad. How is your life going with everything? It’s nice sharing my story with some one who knows the struggle. And your right, July is so close yet so far away. One day this will all be behind me… I hope
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Thanks Helen. I don’t really care about work anymore or anything else if I’m honest. Nothing brings me joy. Everybody around me is moving forward and I’m just fading away. I guess todays a bad depression day. Tomorrows a new day and I know I’ll get over it, the down days just get to me. Feel guilty staying home so much and resting. Scared about what might happen next. Hope you’re doing better than me Helen.
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