Thanks Helen. I don’t really care about work anymore or anything else if I’m honest. Nothing brings me joy. Everybody around me is moving forward and I’m just fading away. I guess todays a bad depression day. Tomorrows a new day and I know I’ll get over it, the down days just get to me. Feel guilty staying home so much and resting. Scared about what might happen next. Hope you’re doing better than me Helen.  ... View more

Hey again. Latest update, came home early Monday  feeling poisoned from the chemo, having Tuesday off as well, feeling depressed and tired and fragile. Will this ever end. I keep thinking back to what the surgeon said, you have only months left. Some days I can accept it. I feel like I’m letting everyone around me down being so weak. Stupid thing to say considering what I’m living with, but that’s we’re I’m at. Well that’s enough about me, how are you doing with everything?   ... View more

Hi Kat. My heart breaks reading your story. Losing faith in doctors when you need them the most should not happen. I don’t know what’s worse, having cancer or seeing your loved one go through it at such a young age. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Stay strong. ... View more

Hi Isadora. Cancer caregivers have been amazing, patient and understanding. I’ve always been very active and mobile. I do the man thing and suck it up. The pain is okay, hands and feet are improving, fatigue is always bringing me down and mentally it’s a struggle. Working with what I have sucks, sometimes my boss can be a pain and not realise I need to sit and rest. I feel like I’m just hanging on. Slept for 10 hours on Sunday and still feel exhausted. Just 6 more weeks of chemo, more blood test and scope surgery and I’m done. Hope it doesn’t come back. Thanks for reaching out, always nice to be heard. ... View more

Hi Helen. Physically I feel tired all the time, bottom of my feet are blistered, peeling and raw from the chemo, but the palms of my hands are healing.  They were red raw, cracked and almost bleeding. Mentally It’s a struggle, I don’t know why anymore, what’s the point to anything. Nothing brings me joy and happiness. It’s like I’m waiting for the next bad thing to happen. But I keep on going, waiting for that breakthrough. To sum up, more bad bays than good. Thanks for asking ... View more

Hi Raych. Can’t wait until I finish my chemo. 6 weeks to go. Theirs a big brass bell in my chemo unit that you ring when you finish, I’m going to sledge hammer that MF when I’m done. Congrats on finishing yours and I wish you good health and happiness. ... View more

Living with cancer sucks, no other way to put it. I might have 5 years left. How do you process that. Before my surgery the Doc said I had months left. Makes me feel sick, depressed, lost. Everything I’ve done and do now seems pointless. I guess todays a down day for me, feel so tired. You know how it goes, good days bad days. Venting makes life a bit easier. Sorry to be so negative, hope your doing better than me Feebs. ... View more

Hi Feebs. The feelings you are going through are a natural reaction to the chaos of the unknown. Their is no right or wrong way to get to the other side. Have faith in your medical and cancer care team. I got stage 2 bowel cancer back in mid Dec 24. I know the feeling of life crashing around you. For me I sucked it up, after the tears of coarse, and got back to living. Best advise I can give, baby steps. Wake up early and try to be productive, it sucks and is painful but life will go on around you regardless. It took me 3 months to start feeling normal again because I didn’t give up, I wanted so badly to quit my job, stay in bed and cry. But now I feel strong because I don’t let it break me. Their is light at the end of the tunnel, don’t give up, never give up, give cancer the middle finger and go about your day and once you get through this you will be unbreakable.💪💪💪❤️❤️❤️  ... View more

I still look every now and then, it’s a safe place to vent and share your journey. Reading everyone’s cancer experience is inspiring and depressing at the same time. I wish mine and yours and everybody’s cancer would f$&k off. I’m at that point we’re it just makes me angry. Only those living this nightmare truely know the struggle. Helen, god bless you. Big hugs ❤️ ... View more

I had some blood in my poo, freaked me out. Went to the cancer caregivers and they said it was a combination from straining/work/chemo and maybe hemorrhoids. Blood test came back all clear. Just side effects of everything. ... View more