No joy, no happiness, no anything. Nothing makes me happy, just never ending physical and mental pain. My head hurts and I want to sleep. I try to sleep but the stress keeps me awake. Is there an end to this? Please stop this pain, please please please please please. This world has broken me and I don’t think I can be unbroken. Talking to others is all good, facing your fears is all good, but it doesn’t help. I live in my head 24/7 and I hate it. I hate my life, I hate my job, I hate bills, I hate everything. Please fix me… ... View more

Thank you so much. I finally finished chemo and feel so much better. Wanted to give up everything so many times but I’m glad I sucked it up and got on with life. Dr says I’m all clear, regular test every 3 month and NO MORE CHEMO, yay!!! ... View more

Hi Cindi. So far so good. 8 days until I finish chemo. Still working somehow, it’s been a struggle. Gained some weight, doctors are happy with my progress. It’s still difficult to get out of bed, but I just do it. Still can’t do the things I used to do, tired all the time. Im coping okay, just surviving. Thanks for the love and support, how’s all your stuff going? PS really scared that it might come back… ... View more

You are going to feel all the emotions. The beginning of this journey sucks, but it’s not the end. Once you make it to the other side you will be so much stronger. Focus on that light at the end of this train ride. Set yourself a goal, Maybe a holiday, new cloths to wear whatever you like, some think to look forward to. Its okay to be scared, just don’t let it be the new you. ... View more

Stay strong man, cancer f$&king sucks. Eat healthy, exercise, don’t do drugs, don’t smoke, don’t drink, keep it clean. I’m 6 1/2 months in, almost finished my chemo. The pain is real. David Goggins it, stay hard!!! ... View more

I wish I could tell you other wise but it’s going to be the hardest moments of your life. You need to be there for her every step of the way. Cancer caregivers are amazing so don’t hesitate to ask them anything no matter how trivial. High dependency care after surgery is a nightmare. Chemo sucks and feels never ending, it helps to chew gum for the hangover feeling. Drink lots of bottled water, rain water is a no go. Theres going to be lots of crying and depression so prepare your self, try to be strong for her and yourself. If she’s got heath insurance use it, get that organised asap. How old is your mum? Im sorry to be so negative but it’s the truth and it sucks. I’m living that nightmare. Also there are good days, it takes time but it does get better. ... View more

Thank you for your help and support Felicity. It is most welcome. ... View more

Hi Adriana. Life has a way of kicking you when your down. Physically, mentally and financially. 3 biggest hurdles to climb. I feel your pain and know the struggle. You shouldn’t be going through this at your age.  Chemo is a bitch, waiting is a bitch, not knowing we happens next is a bitch. Try to stay strong, I know it’s not easy. Best wishes💪❤️💪 ... View more

Thank you Isadora. I don’t know what else to say, today I feel drained and empty. Hard to concentrate. Hopefully I’ll be in remission with you soon. I’m happy your doing well. Quality of life is so important, I want that so bad. How is your life going with everything? It’s nice sharing my story with some one who knows the struggle. And your right, July is so close yet so far away. One day this will all be behind me… I hope ... View more