14 hours ago
1 Kudo
Another day, another roller coaster ride. Fatigue and uncertainty linger, why did this happen to me. I want it to be over, will it end, is this the new me. 23/7/25, my hopefully last day of chemo. Circled the calendar. I keep telling myself that if I can hold on, keep working and have chemotherapy and make it to that day all will be well. It’s not easy, working full time in a freezer (-20) when your body, mind and spirit are broken. But if I can just make it to the end, I will be saved. Please, don’t let this break me. For my family and for myself.
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14 hours ago
Hi. I’m on that journey as well. Ups and downs are the new norm, it’s hard to adapt. I find comfort and strength sharing my story and reading others.
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yesterday
There’s no right way or wrong way to act/feel when going through hardship. All we can do is be brave. You are special, smile in the mirror and never give up hope and love.
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Monday
Congrats on finishing your chemo. 4 months left on mine. Can’t wait to ring that bell.
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Monday
1 Kudo
We’re to start. It began in Dec 24 when I had to go to the hospital due to the worst stomach/back pain I’ve ever experienced. Waited almost 7 hours to see a doctor, the wait still haunts me. The seconds ticked by slowly, I’m embarrassed to say that I was crying, howling, throwing up and rolling on the cold floor. When they finally wheeled me through, gave me drugs to settle the pain, I thought great, this can only get better. Wrong. I did not expect the doc to come back after taking blood to say ‘You Have Cancer’. Shock and disbelief WTF. This can’t be happening. Mum was by my side, she was shocked more than me. After that moment everything went by in a whirlwind blur of pain, crying, depression, anger and other emotions I can’t explain. Before the surgery the doc told me I had maybe months left if this went unchecked. What do you do after someone tells you you have less than a year to live??? The surgery was a success, all of it was cut out and so far I’m cancer free. But not out of the woods just yet. Currently going through chemo therapy and working full time. Every day I just want to give up. Feel so emotionally and physically broken all the time. I hate having doctor appointments all the time, I hate having cancer, I hate not being able to play with the kids like I used too, I hate chemotherapy, I hate that I may lose my job and be unemployed because of this f$&6ing sickness, I hate feeling fragile and useless. Is there a light at the end of this tunnel…
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