I'm glad that your husband is in hospital ,only because they can do more to help him there . I hope it takes some pressure off you for a while too . Whilst his weight is so low he must be very unwell . Try to get some extra sleep if you can . ... View more

Wishing you all the best with the PET . Hope all goes well . ... View more

Sorry to see that you're having such a tough time . I've never had chemo but from others have seen that it can be very difficult . I hope it doesn't get worse ,only better . Despite being a bit down I can tell you're still trying to be positive . I hope your scan shows a positive improvement too. Be kind to yourself . I never tried to figure out why I got cancer .Still wish that it hadn't happened .The only positive for me was making new online friends . ... View more

I'm sorry that your aunt has passed away . I hadn't realised that she was so close to dying . ... View more

I can imagine 4 years of dealing with pain have worn your husband down . Pain can cause depression too. It must be difficult to hear that he doesn't want to go on and that you and your children are not enough to help him get rid of this feeling . It's hard on each and every one of you and I am sorry that I can't help you with this . I think that the pain and loss of a normal life is just too overwhelming . I think counselling for you may help you deal with your own feelings about all this . You need to be able to continue coping ,for your own sake and for the children too . ... View more

I'm sure your brothers didn't mind taking over some of the responsibilities for a while . You needed your break .I am glad you've found support here . I will be thinking of you this afternoon . I hope you did enjoy your holiday,prior to receiving the news about your dad's dying . Staffies are great dogs if well trained so enjoy him . ... View more

I can only imagine that this can feel overwhelming . I don't know what to say . I hope all are doing ok with their treatments and side effects . ... View more

Perhaps a day off as one one off only would do you both good .Consider it as a mental health day if you like . It sounds like your husband needs you even if he isn't feeling sick . ... View more

I'm sorry that you are so tired . Maybe there is somewhere you can get help for getting the children to sleep properly and then you would get more sleep. You know that this is vital . Perhaps start with your gp .for advice . The children won't cope well with bad sleep patterns ,nor will you . I have bad sleeping habits so I know this . As for your husband's smoking ,he may think it won't make much difference now . He may feel it gives him comfort.There are medications e.g. Champix which can help to stop smoking but only if the smoker is ready . You do have a difficult time and I wish I could offer more suggestions to help you but I hope your gp can help. ... View more

I can relate to all said so far . Some people ,a friend warned me early on,care, when they ask how you are while others are just curious . It's hard to know what to say to which person on occasions . Sometimes the reaction you get from others can make you wish you hadn't said anything at all . My counsellor advised me to have a few one-liners ready e.g. "I'm ok. Thanks for asking " for those times when you don't want to tell someone your business. It's surprising at first that some never say a word when you'd expect them to do so but we all react in our own ways . ... View more