Hi Allicat,
I think that dealing with cancer is a life long thing. How you deal with it changes over time, I tend to go through stages. Feeling sad didn't start till 2 yrs later. Up until then I think I was mostly scared, bewildered and angry - and sometimes in denial. Now I 'cope' really well - but I still cry every morning in the shower - a particular trigger for me. I just let it happen. I recognise that I am sad, that life is not exactly as I had planned, that I look a little different now, but I don't fight it - I allow myself to feel sad without beating myself up and once its over I get ready and go to work. I think in a perverse way I thought I should't feel sad - I should feel grateful that I am well, better off than so many others etc, but - it might be a little weird - but by allowing myself to feel sad, I actually feel better.
So, there's no right or wrong way to feel or think about what has happened to us, we all face it in our own way. I hope you found some comfort with the counsellor last week.
CJF
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