Hi Tamara, sorry things aren't so good for you right now. :( So your dad isn't going so well? It seems acceptance is a flowing process...for me anyway..sometimes I am, sometimes I'm not. Be kind to yourself, this is such hard stuff. I finally got to spend some time with my dad on the weekend. Had such a great time with him...these are very precious moments. Take care and message me anytime... It sucks when one of your most favourite people are sick! XX ... View more

hi D, i'm not sure how many more rounds he has...more, not sure if they will continue with it...if it's not working. i guess i'll know more soon now i'm just looking forward to seeing him and see how he's going..it's hard to tell from telephone conversations thankyou for your message it helps to be heard hope your mum is going alright x ... View more

sorry to of your suffering. it sounds like a truly awful time for you and your family. take care sending love, healing and light x ... View more

wow. great news. if it's not too much bother, what is the process to get one's license back when it has been canceled due to medical condition such as GBM? medical report? well done again x ... View more

glad to hear good news. I was just thinking about you the other day... wishing you wellness ... View more

Hi Tamara, I'm going ok thanks busy how are you? how's dad? I'm not with my dad every day...so I guess it's easy for me to get absorbed in the other things in life. but when I have some time to myself...I have a good sob. when i read your words about laying next to your dad and feeling like you're 5 years old and never wanting to let him go...i cry how beautiful it is that you have so much love for him... I haven't seen my dad for about three weeks now...I'm missing him.I've been seeing him at least every 2-3 weeks since his operation...he's been so busy too - appointments, visitors, going here and there...he gets tired. anyway...not sure when I'll visit next...but i can't wait too long! I talked to him yesterday...nothing back from his mri yet...so hopefully that's good news... he's been depressed, but is seeing a psychologist and getting treatment and is feeling better and he's been bush walking and gardening. Glad he can do these things, as they are important to him...got to love the small triumphs! look after yourself... sending love and healing x ... View more

Tamara Glad you had nice day with your dad. Yes I can imagine that when your dad is having a goood day you do too. We all affect each other...I try to remember this when I'm visiting my dad, give him good vibes! Have you seen the cancer councils talking to children about cancer booklet? I found the info helpful. Wishing you many more beautiful times with your pa. Sandra Sorry for loss. I can hear the fondness you have for son and grandson in your writing. My dad has the same tumour that your son had. Tomorrow is his first mri since his treatment...fingers crossed. Glad you have a beautiful little boy in your life . He'll love to hear stories about his wonderful dad as he gets older. Xx ... View more

hi tamara, my dad is 59. in the first three months after his diagnosis I struggled so much - he is too young to get a prognosis that he did (median survival for his condition is 15 months).it's not fair...why can't he get to be an old man ??... it's not right, it's not how it should be! i guess you probably feel like this too? (and your dad is even younger) i also felt sad when i saw gentle older men peacefully going about their days. i felt so much loss. I guess I still feel this loss...but I'm beginning to realise that people get sick and die at any age....it's awful...painful. My dad is called 'grandpa'and sometimes Jon (his name) my eyes and heart fill with tears when I'm now remembering him in the hospital a few days after his craniotomy and just after the surgeon gave us the heartbreaking news...and he said ' i just want to see my grandchildren growing up...and I'm doing that'... children are so healing...I'm so glad I have my beautiful girl who delights me every day...and brings delight to him. He always asks about her. She is only 5. but we let her know what's going on with grandpa. that he has a brain tumour and the doctors are helping him as much as they can. she sees me cry and knows I am sad about grandpa. she asks if he is going to die soon. I tell her the truth ...hopefully not soon, and he's trying his best to stay well for as long as he can. That must be hard not being able to talk with your dad. can he communicate back with you in other ways? do you live nearby to your dad? I live 4-5 hours drive away..I try to visit as much as I can...but wish I was closer. For me the intense anxiety and extreme sadness I felt when he was first diagnosed has eased...I can tolerate it now. I describe it like a rest between contractions when giving birth...I know it will come back...but for now I need to rest a bit...because there is more intense times to come. hope you are going ok. x ... View more

hi Tamara, so very sorry to hear about your dad. It's such a terribly sad thing. What do you do?!! my dad also has cancer and it's been the most awful awful thing i've ever experienced. He has an aggresive brain tumour. what i try to do is this: spend as much time as i can with him and bring his grand daughter (my daughter) to visit. I visit him at his place and organised little mini breaks away at the beach. I phone him up and talk to him and always tell him I love him. I cry. lots sometimes. sometimes i just cradle my sadness gently and let it be - because it's the love i feel for him. i try to look after myself..walking, yoga. i go and see a cousellor and talk about it. i come to this forum...(though i don't always write much) i try not to think too much into the future...about how things will be... I try to be in the now...because right now he's here...though he isn't always feeling that great..sometimes he is. there's no escaping the pain...but i know i feel this way because i care and i love him so much. it's a hard journey this one - when someone you love is sick like this. love him up spend lots of time with him (and your mum...) you feel like this because you care. please look after yourself sending love and healing x ... View more