Well I am back.
After six months or so of chemotherapy and other interventions I developed an urge to cook, cure, preserve and share food. I started to read about food for the first time in my life. Some of the good food writers like Stephanie Alexander and Marcella Hazan have a way with words as well as with ingredients. I liked reading them very much.
I did classes on making tomato sauce and sausages. I learned how to cure olives and how to turn extremely fatty belly pork into pancetta. Quince paste was next and then lemons. The pantry is now full of my jars of all this preserved food. Why do I do it?
I talkeed about this with a therapist a couple fo years ago and we agreed that I was fascinated by the very idea of preserving nutrition for later use. At the time I had no immune system and little sense of being healthy at all. Cooking and preserving was a way for me to feel healthy.
I read about food science and the sociology of food. A wonderful text is Feast: Why People Share Food by Martin Jones. He is an archaeologist who has turned his skills to exploring the nature of human eating. For example, he points out that humans are the only species that will eat with strangers and the only species that will make eye contact when eating. This suggest to Jones that sharing food is a social ritual as much as a biological one.
I also read Michael Pollan and Paul Roberts about the changing nature of food production. Pollan says we should eat food, not things that are manufactured to look like food.
I love being in a kitchen and starting off on something. It is an activity that makes me feel healthy. I relax immediately and zone off from other preoccupations.
I am looking forward to 'tomato day' with my daughters because it is a busy, fun day with lots of food and lots of bottles of passata stacked away for the next year. I still have about twenty jars from last year's preserving and the next lot will be done in March. Better get going on Italian.
When I did the tomato sauce class the mama who instructed us made a point of saying to us: "Don't fold your arms when you are cooking, it blocks the love". How good is that. That comment is one reason I have a soft spot for Italian cooking.
Similarly, Marcella Hazan says that Italian food is built from the bottom up, ie. olive oil, onion, carrot, celery, then the tomato, wine, stock, etc on top. The sauces tend to come from within the dish and are not made separately as much as, for example, in French food. That is partly why I love Italian so much. It is a gut feel replicated in a pot, warming and communicating. It screams to be shared.
Beats the hell out thinking about cancer.
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