Hello Maher,
I am so very sorry for what you and your dear dad are going through.
Please ask your self, "why do you feel like a failure" is it because you are not caring for your dad as you should? or is it because maybe there is nothing you can do to help him right now.
It must be so sad to watch your dad's health deteriorating in front of you, I am sure that you are doing your very best to care and love your dad, so I think you feel like a failure because it is out of your power to make your dad feel better. As humans we always try to find something or someone to blame for those things that we can not change or improve, please do not be so hard on yourself. Your dad right now needs someone to be there for him, provide love, support or just sit there next to him, and that special person is you, so think about that next time you feel like a failure, as it is not easy to care for someone and not many people will understand all the things you go through every day to give your dad the best care he deserves.
If you are an Australian resident, I would like to suggest calling 131120 our information and support number. There you can learn about our support and services, like counselling and telephone support group for people caring for someone diagnosed with advanced cancer.
Sending you and your dad my best wishes
Susana
Cancer Council
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