Hi All, My god!!!!! It's all I can find the words to say at the moment. I have so much to say and I have so many feelings but I just cannot find the words to express them. But everything I have read on this site is EXACTLY how I actually feel or want to say. I am tripping over myself and my mind is going in overdrive, thinking.... "yes, that's it. That's how I feel. That's what I wanted to say". You guys are all so wonderful. For many years since my husband's diagnosis, I used to sit and ponder about so many things but just cannot make sense of them all because no one would understand and/or listen. I now feel so relieved that I was not in fact crazy. This site have helped me heal and become stronger. It has helped me smile again even if it's just in the tiniest little bit. I drove past the Gold Coast Hospital this morning (my husband passed away here) and you know what?? For once I did not freak out, scream or cry. Thank you all. Keep talking/writing and I will keep reading. Good luck to everyone out there affected by cancer. I am always thinking of each and everyone of you and sending lots of hugs and kisses and gentle thoughts of "just called to say Hello and see how you're doing". Veronica xx ... View more

Hi Lisa, My name is Veronica. I am 31 (just turned 31 in Jan) and I also just lost my husband, Simon (36) to GBM in Oct 2009. It's hard... We met when I was 18 and have never been apart until now. We have a 7.5 months old son together and I am terrified of the future!!! Lisa, I am soooo comforted to have read your post - I now know I am not alone (felt like it though). I try to smile, I try to get on with things, I try to breathe but it all takes a lot of effort. I know what you mean about friends and family going back to their own lives. It's lonely out there but I feel bad asking them to stay a little longer. I am feeling so many things at once that it is hard to differentiate them. I like to constantly talk about Simon because it makes me feel good but I know people are looking at me strange. Why should they feel uncomfortable when it is me who is grieving? Lisa, I hope we can be in touch. I hope we can help one another somehow. I hope we can both heal and learn to smile and laugh again. I want to take a full breath of fresh air without feeling the tightness in my chest. ... View more