So sorry for your loss, it is a cruel way for them to go and for family to watch, 6 months after Gary has gone and it doesn't get any easier, take it slow in the grieving process, do it in your own time, hugs Lorraine. ... View more

Hi Jan, I am so sorry for your loss of your beloved John, words can't help but at least all of us do really know how you are feeling and we all care, hugs and love Lorraine. ... View more

I am so sorry because I totally understand and know what you are talking about. I hate saying this but I have been there and done it with my beloved husband, but the end didn't come easy as his heart was too strong. I wish you didn't have to go through it or anyone else, Lots of hugs and be strong, Lorraine. ... View more

Hi Geoff, I was going to sign my name Rain instead of Lorraine it what my family call me and I am a Aries but us all Lorraine's are good people as you would know with your Lorraine. I don't think the kids are fine but I'm sure we will be one day. It is funny but Gary's cat slyvester doesn't let up in the morning till I get up, like he knows I can't be bothered to get up n go, he never leaves my side, I suppose he feels it to, he is 10, so I have him to look after now. We have all been so full on being carers for so long looking after our love one's then they go, and we are left at a full stop, our life full on looking after them, then nothing, I think that's the problem why we feel lost. I have a daughter here and 3 of my grand kids so that keeps me busy, and I am starting back at bowls, won't be the same without Gazza. I drive past the cemmerty everyday to work n back and hi to him, will be better when his headstone is finished, I organised it 3 weeks after Gazza went, we talked heaps about it all when he was better. I miss him heaps, been married to Gazza since I was 17, 36 years is a long time, I have sad days and little things make me tear up, but you know what we have to take day by day, baby steps, so keep strong, we need to do it because that's how they would want us to do. Hugs Rain. ... View more

Hi Geoff I know what you mean about it not being the death/passing you wanted or they deserve Gary had seizures right to the end, and one of the tumours stopped the morphine getting in so he felt every seizure, the kids (29 to 33) said they will never forget or do that for anyone again, I feel cheated as we were told it would be peacefully, I have returned to work and feel lost as 5 months off everything changes I really don't care about it but it makes the days go by, everyone says how are you, I lie and said fine, one time I just said my husband died how the f,,,k do you think I am, then felt awful for saying it. Your mate wasn't being fair to you or his family. I hope you are ok as best as you can, hugs Lorraine ... View more

I am so sorry for your fight, my Gary went in August, you have to keep things simple, don't go overboard with trying to make things right, they can't handle complicated things, it really isn't worth the stress and they get confused, always remember it is the Tumour that makes them who they are. I lost the real Gary 13 months before he die, when they cut out that thing and left me with a shell of who he was but we still had him and we hand some good times, yes he knew in the beginning he was changed, but as the time went on, we lost the real him but I wouldn't have changed a thing. So let your son scream, my son at 29, cried and yelled and said he couldn't do it anymore, and cried himself to sleep but stayed until the end with his 2 sisters, and he wouldn't have done anything different, but they have changed as well, we all do after our own journeys through this shit time, so go have a wine with your husband and enjoy the time you have left, hugs Lorraine. ... View more

Hi Peanutz, so sorry for your loss, it is so hard to go on, I am still struggling without Gary, Lorraine ... View more

Hi Linda, I am so glad everything went well like your sister wanted, and that you have such wonderfull memories of her, it's nice that her family was there glad she could rely on them, we will have to catch up, hugs Lorraine. ... View more

Hi there, Thank you for all your kind words for the passing of Gary, we had the funeral yesterday and it was such a beautifull day both the service and the wake afterwards, the town I live in really took care of all the wake, we didn't have to do a thing and the support was amazing, Gary & I are truely blessed to be in this community. I still have all family here, they go home tomorrow except for 1 sister, but I suppose when I am alone and have time to reflex on my next journey by myself it will be the tester, but I am sure it will be fine. Hugs Lorraine. ... View more

Hi there, Thank you for all your kind words for the passing of Gary, we had the funeral yesterday and it was such a beautifull day both the service and the wake afterwards, the town I live in really took care of all the wake, we didn't have to do a thing and the support was amazing, Gary & I are truely blessed to be in this community. I still have all family here, they go home tomorrow except for 1 sister, but I suppose when I am alone and have time to reflex on my next journey by myself it will be the tester, but I am sure it will be fine. Hugs Lorraine. ... View more