Having cancer is a big deal .It takes time to adjust to physical changes after treatment and to deal emotionally . Most find online support groups helpful as others don't want to know too many details and don't know how to deal with you saying how you feel . Even when you reach a stage of acceptance and adjustment there can be down days . ... View more

Thankyou both - Harker and Silly for your words - it has been great to be able to put these thoughts and feelings down and know that there are people out there who have faced such similar experiences and 'get' what I am on about. These are things even my family wouldn't be able to handle or understand. I will definately look for the book, as I am now able to indulge my passion for reading again. Couldn't concentrate on anything for so long. You both seem to be very wise and I take solace in your words. Thankyou again. ... View more

It's strange isn't it - I don't think I have accepted losing my breast - I don't know if I ever will, but its really the last thing on my mind - it is the struggle finding me as a person now, how is my life going to be once I have it all together - will I ever feel that I have it together again? Will I ever feel like people are not looking at me like - 'there's that mum, that hairdresser that got cancer?' But I hold onto the strength that I will deal with this one thing at a time. It's really good to be able to write about these things. I did look at this site earlier in the year, but was frightened by the darkness I felt my life to be in and was worried what I might say. Thankyou for your words - it is so reassuring that there are people who get you. ... View more

Emma It is hard when someone wants a situation to be a certain way. In some ways I can relate to the way your mother is thinking and behaving as that happened to me during my recovery. IT is a bit of a self protection thing. You might find keeping a journal helpful as a way to still express yourself in your way, of course I know that doesn't help your physical need. Oh and now I read someone has already suggested the letter writing. IT is a great way to still be able to express oneself. Julie ... View more