Hello Nicole Absolutely explode away! You deserve it. Wow what a load you are carrying. You seem to be doing so well with your load and your strength in your ability to cope is feeding that as I see it but we are all vessels and at some stage a vessel can become empty. Hence I do hope that at some point you are doing some things that nurture you. It is really important for you to take that time for yourself if you want to maintain your strong self. I feel for you.  My partner has stage 4 rectal cancer and we dont know from kne week to the next if he will be around much longer. He has fought it for 5 and half years and is still going. It metastisized to the lymph and liver and he has had so many chemo doses that he has been in hospital twice now with UTI's which really knocked him about. Yeh, as you say Nicole, it sucks. Good on you for 'exploding' Ha! We all need to do that when under such emotional strain.  Glassfull ... View more

Hi Nicole- I can only say "Argghh- enough already" on your behalf. Sending you hugs. Emily xx ... View more

......and you know what Nicole, its certainly not whining. Its all about downloading and expressing yourself with us on blogs like this, so you can then draw on your inner strength to be face to face with your family. ....So sorry to hear about what you are going through. Be kind to yourself and let us know if there is anything we can help you with. Take care Annie ... View more

Thank you all for your kind comments. It makes me feel a little less alone to know that others have similar feelings. ... View more