Hi Emily, Thank you for your kind words and let me to vent on. So I will. Yes my head spins all the time. Hard to sleep and eat. He is still in hospital because they need to drain out the fluid completely, and therefore he'll need a surgery, today will be transferred to royal brisbane and booked in for the surgery tomorrow. And maybe by Monday he's home. He also has some disability, some nerve damage in his leg, been for some years now, He hasn't been working therefore for years. He can walk but needs some support, like walking stick, so manageable. But it's just something which adds to the list. I suppose to be his full time carer, but I have no idea how to handle it. With the physical disability it's easy, need a walking support, just put the order in, for foot brace or stick, and no problem. But how I will handle this? I'm crying all the time. How can I be any support when I am falling apart. I don't even know how I can concentrate on my job, I have a casual job, work on the internet for google. It's just provide some extra income besides my carer payment. This is a small community here,but fortunately there's a little hospital, doctors, and I have already been in touch with doctors and social worker. They all wonderful people. I don't know if ever anyone could put a smile on my face or on his face. How can you live like that :-( warm hugs and strength for you too ... View more