Hi Im Kaori, I've been off this forum for a while I hope you're finding peace of mind. Since last October I became officially an homeless, but grateful for shelter they took me in. I've had my breast cancer metastasis a year ago. I've been struggling to do some kind of work to qualify myself in private rental market for last 6 months but every effort just gets wasted, I am starting to lose will power to go against this. One thing keeping me here is my son under custody of my ex. For me medicine worked and I am physically strong but no hope for having a job thus no hope for a private rental is really hitting me hard.  For emergency shelter I can not have my son over and when I am just alone I feel like I am just here as nuisance to the world. I am tired of making effort to generate some sort of income.  I tried budgeting it worked well but I am so bad that thinking about money actually make me sick. I was watching a Japanese youtube by a Palliative Psychological doctor he explains the most of the cancer patients actually die peacefully with loved ones around with not too much pain.  He says in the end patient start to look like s/he is not responding but they can hear what you say.  "So if you're a family, keep talking"   That youtube sort of made me feel easier.  I hope I could put English sub to it, or some English seaking Palliative care Doctor make something similar.     ... View more