To "Never Ending", I have treatment on a 3 monthly basis for my Bladder Cancer and yes it can be very hard to take as a long term thing but as you yourself have answered your own question in "I have this for the rest of my life". Yes the alternative isn't good without the treatment so learn to live with "your new normal" which we all have to and as Nikki says enjoy your grandkids as they will put a smile on your face every time you look at them even when they get grumpy. Love your life Paul  ... View more

Hi Nikki and thanks for the pm and yes the people you have to deal with in our cancer journey most of which have never suffered with anything other than the flu have a lot to learn, glad you have the cream that does work. My niece in Canada has a diet for her blood group which the dietitien in my local cancer care centre swears will cause you no end of trouble but she is good and healthy so?  Keep positive Nikki and form your own opinion on things,  Love & Best Wishes Paul  ... View more

Hi Nikki,   I feel your pain.. although I don't have kids (cancer took this from me) , leaving my partner, family and friends behind hurts like nothing else.... Even though our minds are like rollercoasters, I constanlty focus on the fact that there will be something at the right time that can change our diagnosis... alot of clinical trials out there... constantly ask, seek, query... there are miracles out there! Also making lasting memories that your kids, family and firends will keep forever.   I"m not sure what your schedule is with the kids, but I found that meditation really helps... clears out the thoughts.. I find 5-10mins a day or even every 2-3 days can make a huge difference. I find doing it before bed helps me fall asleep faster. 'Smiiley minds' is a great app for this!     As hard as it is, don't stop fighting, chin up and be determined to beat this once and for all. ... View more