We lost our Beautiful Mum 3 years ago in October, our Grandfather (Mum's Dad) a year later. Our 90 year old Grandmother (Mum's Mum) has been having health issues and now our Sister has been diagnosed with Stage 3 NH Lymphoma and is having chemo so death is on my mind a lot. I don't live back in our hometown (where all of the above lived/lived) so I saw my Sister for the first time in months on the weekend and she looked terrible (like death, which really scared me). She is being extremely positive about it all which is amazing however; me, not so much. Trying to stay positive, of course but my body is struggling with the emotional stress. Vomiting, feeling anxious and quite lethargic fairly regularly. I'm trying to take care of myself and eat as best I can whilst I find myself waiting for expecting those dreaded, bad news phone calls.
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