Oh sweet lady. You are awesome. I know it is inappropriate but I wish I could support you more. It seems to me that your outlet is helping others....that's me too. I stayed on line with a dear woman who was sitting with her husband in the  US...hospice while he died.... using what I knew from my experience with Chris....I was there for her as you have been for others  and me in the forum. Gosh this is special stuff. I do believe the wounded heal their wounds by being there for others.   As to hubs not having a bucket list....I feel his is fixing the place up for you my lovexx ... View more