Hi everyone, I haven't been on here for sometime. Mainly still trying to get answers. I found this letter while I was looking for something else. This is what I sent to my family, with what I was going through at the start of my journey. I am not sure how to start here but I thought it would be easier to put it down on here than talk about it. I am really confused as what to do! There is a lot that I have not said, or I might of, or have not asked the question myself. Ok my quality of life after treatment. Yes no one knows what will happen, but the worst is something I need to consider. From the Dentist: All my teeth can rot within 3 months; I must use 3M Tonsil 5000 toothpaste for the rest of my life to try and not lose any more teeth. If I need any Mager work done on my teeth, they must contact Peter Mac Dentistry before they do as besides gums will not heal, I will get jawbone rot. Everything is for the rest of my life. Radiation: Damage to muscles in the mouth and neck, which can affect my speech, swallowing and eating. Ulcers on the inside of the mouth, skin on both the outside and inside that will be as if I am sunburned. If I have trouble eating and lose too much weight, then I will be fed through a tube. Some of these do get better and some you have for the rest of my life. Chemo: I still need to find out what it is going to do to me. Some of the things are Nausea and Vomiting, Taste and Smell changes, Infection risks, Low Platelets, More Mouth Pain and Ulcers, Diarrhoea, Appetite Loss, Tiredness and Lack of Energy, Nerve Damage, Kidney Damage, Hearing Changes, Low Blood Magnesium - Potassium - Calcium levels, Low Red Blood cells and Hair loss. Yes, I understand that I might not get all these problems but then again, I might! No one knows. So, my quality of life is not looking Rosey. Then on top of all this the Radiation Oncologist is confident that if they get all the cancer, they will cure it. But if they miss one small bit of cancer then that is it. They cannot do anything as they would not be able to use Radiation or chemo to treat it and, I would have about 2 years to live! So yes, my concerns are my quality of life after treatment even if I only get some of these problems and weather, they all fix themselves or not? No one Knows but if they don't then what sort of life will I have? And on top of all this if they miss a bit of cancer then I am going through all this for nothing! Do they know where all the cancer is? One minute I have cancer, then I do not. I am having Radiation on my right lymph node and right Tonsil, now it is both sides? I know no one can make the decision for me, but I thought I needed to share this with everyone, how I am feeling. I do not expect anyone to reply, as I know there is nothing anyone could say to help me make my decision and believe that you would all support me with which ever decision I make. I do need to ask more questions from the Radiation and Chemo people to help me make a better decision about what is best for myself. I know I can start treatment and stop if I am having trouble with it. Thank you as I did need to get this of my chest. As living on my own does make it hard not having someone to talk to about it. I know you are all there for me as are really good friend. I will get through this whichever way I go. Your son and brother. I didn't add that the main reason I went through the treatment, was because I didn't it was right for my mother having to bury me. My after effects have been dry mounth, ringing in the ears and Phrenic nerve palsy, which causes my lungs to collapse, In the end my quality of life isn't wonderful. good luke to everyone on their journey.
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