I like my counsellor and I feel encouraged that she thinks I'm going well. But I know that sometimes she has misses the point I am trying to make which makes me doubt her. Also, I think the more I get to know her the more I feel reluctant to bring up embarrassing or awkward things or things that will make me cry. Just because while things have been going well lately she has become a bit more like just a person who I chat to instead of a person who tries to say helpful things while I cry buckets of tears of terror.
Example of missing the point: when I told her about surgery being postponed at the last minute she was very keen to write a letter of complaint to the hospital. I thought that was a pointless waste of everyone's time as it wasn't like the hospital had done it on purpose. So when I persuaded her that a letter wasn't necessary she concluded that I was fine about the postponement when in fact I would have liked to talk about it because I was still quite disconcerted by it.
I don't know what point am I trying to make now. I guess I am wondering how long it is helpful to go to counselling for. And, is it best to keep going to the same counsellor forever, or change after a while? I suppose it is best to stick with the same one as she is learning more about me and it would silly to start fresh with someone else.
Cancer Council NSW would like to acknowledge the traditional custodians of the land on which we live and work.We would also like to pay respect to elders past and present and extend that respect to all other Aboriginal people.