Having a tough day

[donnai]

Hi All It has been 5 days since my mums funeral.. She passed away after a very short fight with lung cancer.. I just dont get it.. How can someone so wonderful be taken from me.. I feel completely lost without her.. I am putting on a brave face for everyone but I am just crumbling inside.. I feel the sympathy only goes so far from people because she was a smoker.. Even i want to be angry with her but I just love her too much to ever be angry or disappointed with her.. Should she have gone to the doctor earlier?? I know she didnt suffer, it all just happened so quickly.. I just miss her so much.. i dont understand how someone can have a problem that no one can fix.. Everyone, even myself have said "if she could have written the script for her dying days, it would have looked pretty close to what it was" but she's gone and i just want her back so badly.. I feel completely consumed in my own self pitty.. Please tell me it will get easier.....

[#2]

My heart goes out to you Donnai. It has been such a shock for you, everything happening so quickly. I have experienced the pain and emptiness when my mother died and "Yes" the pain eases over time. I found it comforting to talk about my mum with family and friends, we were in tears often but also our talks led to smiles and then to laughter about the wonderful things we remembered about her.

[AmandaC]

Oh Donnai, I really feel for you it is just so so hard to deal with. I imagine you are still in alot of shock. 2 years later my husband and I still feel devistated about my FIL he went so quickly and so unexpectedly we just were not ready. But to be honest I dont; think we can ever be ready to watch someones last breath especially our loved ones. I will say it does get easier with time, you will have good days and bad. Like Reindeer when we talk about my FIL we have a range of emotions from tears to laughter, usually at how bad his jokes were or his quirky ways. give yourself time and try not to hold it all in, express yourself its good to go through the process and move forward in a positive way. XX Amanda

[sammycat]

Hi Donnai Im so sorry about your mothers passing. Yes it does get easier but at the moment I bet your still in a state of disbelief and numbness. Just remember there is no right or wrong way to feel. I lost my mother in March this year and still struggle on days especially now with Christmas looming in. You will find an inner strength that will get you through and as times passes you will look back and wonder how you got through but believe me you will get through. When I find myself having a bad day/night I try and think what would my mum be saying to me right now. I send you my best wishes and would be more than happy for you to message me should you wish to discuss anything at all. Sammycat