My Dad

[DizzyDee]

Well at around 3:30 pm this afternoon, my Dad lost his fight with Cancer. I wasn't with him as I couldn't watch him die, but I did tell him how much I loved him and how he has always been there for me. Mum tells me it was peaceful, she kissed him on the forehead and said "GoodBye My Love" and he simply stopped breathing. We are all in la la land at the moment, it has not really sunk in as yet. I felt the need to write on here as it is the only place that truly understands. I am getting drunk and not really feeling anything. The world has lost a very strong personality. I LOVE you Daddy....may you now have the peace that this horrendous, merciless disease has robbed you of until now.!!!!

[CATS]

My sincere sympathy DizzyDee. My Dad lost his battle with prostate cancer in 1990. I still miss him so much but I know, as with your Dad, he is no longer suffering. The pain became too much for Dad(and the useless drugs that could not control the pain). I got totally drunk the day Dad died and kept on drinking for the entire weekend. I was numb and do not remember very much of the following two weeks. I ended up in hospital, apparently having suffered a breakdown of sorts - most likely from a broken heart, tiredness and alcohol abuse - I was later informed I was self medicating because I could not cope with Dad's death. Whatever - at that stage nothing mattered. Take care of yourself and don't overdo anything. I hope everything goes smoothly with the things that have to be done over the next weeks.

[samex]

Hi Dizzydee, Words always seem so futile at times like these.I can't imagine your pain as I still have my wonderful Dad at the age of 84. He has survived a a valve replacement in his heart, a tumour removed from his bowel and radiation treatment for prostate cancer. He is amazing. Be kind to yourself and your family and while we may not truly know your pain, we will always be here to listen and care. Samex

[Mrs_Elton]

DizzyDee, My sincere sympathy to you and your family on the loss of your Dad. I can't begin to imagine how you are feeling, words can't take away your pain and sadness. I hope you can find some comfort in the memories of happier times. Share with us whatever you need to, whenever you need to, if that will help in any way. Kind regards, Jill

[chris_martin]

Hi Dizzydee. I'm so sorry to hear about your dear dad.I can sort of imagine how you are feeling as I am preparing myself for my dad going. It must be so hard but try and think of all your happy memories with your dad as I'm sure you have many. Easier said than done but please take care of yourself and keep in touch with this site as it is so helpful. Take care xoxoChris

[DizzyDee]

Thank you all for your heartfelt words. The thing I am finding difficult now, is continuing. I am not thinking of not going forward, I am just not ready to just pick things up as if nothing has happened. My world has been forever changed and still the world outside is unaffected. I am still finding it difficult to come to terms with never seeing my Dad again. I thought his funeral would bring that to a head but it didn't. How is my Mum going to get by without him? I cannot be there every day for her, and I hate the thought of her sitting alone in her room crying. IT'S NOT FAIR!!!!!