Today was the first appt with the radiotherapist,tommorrow is the day of the simulator for the radiation and Friday is the day for the chemo oncologist.Why wasnt it until today when I was in the waiting room that it hit me right between the eyes "I have cancer".How can I offer support and best wishes to this community when I cant even cope with my own cancer.Thanks to all the wonderfully brave people out there I feel like I am not alone although I wish nobody had to go through this fight with this insidious disease.Hugs wishes and especially thankyou to all.X