Hello everyone,it has been 4 years 5 months since my darling husband Rex lost his battle against brain cancer.Everyone tells me how brave and strong I am and I suppose that is true..but my heart was so broken and still is to this very day. He never complained about his cancer and passed away with dignity and grace,all he could think about was the little children who had this horrible disease called cancer.He told me he had a good life up until he was diagnosed and did not regret anything. It was me who silently suffered and secretly planned my future without him amidst outbursts of sobbing alone.It was me who got so angry and frustrated to see the love of my life dying each day and it was me who could not cope looking after him any longer ( I was not strong enough to lift him off the floor when he fell over time and again ) I suffered with guilt a lot when he was put into palliative care hospice.After lots of grief counselling I am feeling better about myself. So even after all this time my heart aches for him but I am not in deep seated misery and self loathing anymore.My love to anyone going through your own experiences with cancer,you are true heroes in my eyes. ❤️❤️ Cheers Dorrise ... View more

Hi everybody,Rex my darling husband passed away last night,he died in my arms and with his hand on my heart with me telling him he is so loved.What an honour to be with him when he took his last breath in this world. He could not fight this aggressive disease called cancer any longer. He is at peace now and will be in my heart and our families hearts forever.He was so brave and a gentleman to the end,what a wonderful role model. Thanks for all your support over these past 6 months. Remember all you wonderful carers out there..you are all 'victors not victims' Gently Gently on your journey. May the grace of your god go with you. Dotty ... View more

I have had the most terrible 3 weeks witnessing what this dreadful disease has done to my darling husband Rex. We knew it was terminal 6 months ago and we thought we had prepped ourselves pretty well but he didn't get a chance to fulfill some of his 'bucket list' because he has deteriated so quickly. He had a fall and was admitted to hospital and then he fell out of the hospital bed and hurt his ribs and elbow.The brain mets have been so awful for him and to witness someone who had such an intelligent and quick witted mind lose his cognitive thinking is so painful.He was transferred to Palliative Care Unit and I was informed today that he will not be coming back home and to prepare myself for his passing. Not having him back home even with all the hospital equipment set up including an oxygen concentrater etc was like a big kick in the teeth for me,it is like the first death. Anyway!! my poor man is having his morphine and sedatives given via canulars in his stomach because his veins have collapsed. The Drs and staff are amazed at how long I was able to care for him at home and I would still love to do this because it was an honour for me to care for him and love him every moment of our time together they are coming to pick up all the equipment on Monday so it will hit me hard. I just wanted to share with you and sorry I have not been here for awhile. Gentle hugs to all of you who are going through your own journey, Dotty xx ... View more