What Cancer cannot do!

[Vicki_Anne]

I was given some words yesterday and would like to share. CANCER IS SO LIMITED It cannot shatter hope, It cannot corrode faith, It cannot destroy peace, It cannot kill friendship, It cannot suppress memories, It cannot silence courage, It cannot invade the soul, It cannot steal eternal life, It cannot conquer the spirit. I love doing papercraft, eg scrapbooking, cardmaking etc. I have thrown myself into this lately and I am creating a small book for myself call "WORDS TO LIVE BY" It is a blank A5 size visual art display book that I am adding all my inspirational sayings and some funny words that I have collected over a long period. I decorate each page with lots of papers and colours, stamping, ribbons, lace and much more. Its great therapy so far. I have also researched my family history for years and now am planning on putting this into book format for my kids and their descendants. I have stories and dates and photos and I want to pass this on in a way that others will want to read it. LOL there seems to be a little more urgency to actually get it done now and not one day.... Cancer has changed the way I look at things on a day to day basis. The things that you once stressed and worried about don't seem to matter anymore. Its important to concentrate on what you CAN do in your day. Live for each day. Sometimes I wish I could have thought like this 20 years ago. Slow down, don't move so fast. I am not a writer that expresses easily what you feel inside, but I have found that if you grab a pen and paper and just let if flow sometimes it does help to clarify your thoughts. Only you have to see what you wrote. I wake each day now and think about what I would like to do for this day and get up and get enthusiastic about what I can do. I get very tired but then stop and rest and start again. Still going through Chemo for a little while yet, but I have my enthusiasm. two more sayings I would like to share: THE ONLY THING YOU HAVE TOTAL CONTROL OVER IS YOUR ATTITUDE. (no-one can take that away from you) We act as though comfort and luxury were the chief requirements of life, when all that we need to make us really happy is something to be enthusiastic about.

[Jules2]

Hiya Vicki Wow what a wonderful post!! I am so in agreeance that you can still have control over all the things you have listed. For me it is about not giving cancer things that I can control. For instance I will never refer to it as a 'big c' and that sort of thing. I am sure your scrapbooking projects will be fantastic. I had a friend who used to do that and she created one with her daughter with special memories of them both. They were both scrap booking fans and both contributed and it was very special for them. TIme for me to go tackle the mountain of washing that needs folding and putting away. Thank you Julie

[craftyone]

HI Vicki, I agree, what a fantastic blog. I am quite envious of your skill. It does help though, doesn't it, to put into words what is happening and what might be eating you up (mental-wise) inside. A great release can be had. Whilst recovering from ops, years ago, i found that my cross-stitch was very easy to do, something to concentrate on, but not mind draining. I am now into quilting which is requiring a lot more thought, but also very enjoyable. Keep up the good work and enjoy your srapbooking craftyone

[Jules2]

POondering whether i should confess to what helped me through my treatment 😄

[Vicki_Anne]

Would love hear it Jules2. Thanks to all for the good comments on my post. It made me feel good about that. Today I realized there will be life after chemo. A simple thought but so far I haven't been able to see past the treatment and what that will bring. When I finish chemo, its not the end. I can take a break and get some energy back. I probably have up to 7 weeks to go, taking me up to Christmas. New scan happening on 10th November, see the specialist on the 18th for results. Then work out next step forward. Reading other posts have helped greatly with this. Thanks.

[carolyn2]

hi vickie that poem is lovely im carolyn i found out last year and have spent the whole time trying to fight the medical wold just to get diagnosed you can read more about it in my diary post called my journey hope that you find some courage to keep fighting and there is always some one else in a rougher boat !!

[Jules2]

Well it started out as farmville and then i moved onto mafia wars. lol It was hilarious really as one day there were two of us sat at the computers. The guy that sat next to me was a farmer and i was helping him to log onto a farming website and he was asking me how my farm was going and the harvest etc.... I still play the games and to be honest it has been a fantastic distraction for me. If you had asked me before cancer and treatment whether i would play those sort of games I would have just laughed and said "no". Funny how cancer impacts on us sometimes. 🙂