Put chemo off until after my daughters wedding in 3 weeks time. Was really exhausted and not well the other day so didnt actually start the chemo yet. The doctor thought I had made a good choice as it has got to the point where I need to consider if a 2nd round of chemo will benefit or make things worse. If physically I cant cope then maybe its crunch time so to speak. Quality rather than quantity in life thats left. I feel relieved that doctor thought I had made a wise and sensible choice about wednesday. Great support also from family. Hubby has been so supportive with all this. Nothing will cure me , its about making the best of however much time I have left. Getting through the wedding is my goal now. Vicki ... View more

The topic comes to the top of the list on the side and you think , oh good, somewhere has added to this, then to come in and its some person just posting some junk spam etc. Logo design, who cares. ... View more

I can relate to every comment here from the last few days. People say to me "you are looking well" , people who dont even hardly know me at all as well as family. My Mum is the best at that, I think it is her coping mechansism maybe. When inside of me I feel like shit, struggling to even get around the house some days. I get really frustrated and cross with myself cause I cant do the basic stuff. And yes I tend to accomodate others words, thinking they mean well. and they are only trying to encourage you, Somedays you dont want encouraging. Most days I dont feel brave or strong, I just want things fixed, and that aint gonna happen. With you Samex, the steroids fill my face out a little and it makes me look not so haggard and frail. But the fatigue is phenomenal most of the time. @ Dianne, yes there is always someone they know who has had it worse or did this or that and it worked for them, maybe you could try that they say. Ha. NO..... The frustrating thing at the moment is the typing, Bad finger farting this morning they're not pushing the right keys. LOL. I end up back spacing and hitting the keys even harder. Thanks all for expressing my thoughts in words I couldnt have thought of. Enough venting for now Vicki PS I do have great family support but they cant actually do it for you on the inside. ... View more

Thanks Harker, I've never been big on cooking at home, but love watching the shows. You always manage to pick up an idea or two or even some motivation sometimes. LOL They tell me not to take vitamins and minerals and antioxident stuff with chemo, but I can surely do things like seeds (pumpkin seeds), and nuts and juices and other good stuff. will keep looking. Vicki ... View more

Congratulations on your new granddaughter Dianne. Cheers Vicki ... View more

Congratulations Hev, Welcome aboard our great country. A very proud moment for you and your family. Cheers Vicki ... View more

Hi Sophie, Condolences to you and your family. In my area the local cancer resource group have wigs that are donated, so you could try your local one, or contact Cancer Victoria, maybe through Kate. I am sure some one would very much appreciate it. Maybe someone else has more suggestions. Take Care Vicki ... View more

Glad to hear good news there DPC. Hope your partner continues to feel better. Cheers Vicki ... View more

Thanks everyone, sunny day here at the moment in rural Vic, so washing and organising day and off in car tomorrow. @maddie I have oesophageal cancer with mets to liver. main one in oesophagus has shrunk and is holding still at the moment. the liver is the problem with multiple lesions. Did radiation at Peter Mac in Melb for 3 weeks in July and just finished 5 months of chemo in my local hospital. And dont worry I intend to fight like hell to stay as long as I can. At the moment I am, figuretively speaking, picking myself up and shaking head to clear and get on with the next stage. I thought I would have a lovely time playing with camera last night. Ha, guess what, forgot to get memory card.. The sales lady is a bit slack not selling me one. LOL. Will have to talk hubby in doing another trip into town today.. hehehehe. take care all Vicki The only thing you have total control over is your ATTITUDE ... View more