After battling mouth cancer for 2 years... my darling daddy was fighting hard to make Christmas...and what does this so called GOD have in store.... He was killed in a car accident last week... so close to Christmas, on one hand I am so bloody angry that he was taken and we didn't get a chance to say Goodbye...but on the other hand he is no longer suffering and is at peace.... He suffered so terribly with this insipid disease... he could barely talk or swallow but he still never complained. My heart is aching so much for him, I so desperately want to just go and be with him but I know that my mum, brother and husband still need me to be here. I still can't believe it, why did he have to suffer the way he did, he had such a kind heart and I will miss him dearly until we are together again one day.... I'm just so numb I can barely function... I am a HWP officer and I don't even know after 20 years how I can go back to that.... I can't attend another fatal accident, I just can't.
Lost, I'm just so lost...