Just venting

[Richard1]

Another day, another roller coaster ride. Fatigue and uncertainty linger, why did this happen to me. I want it to be over, will it end, is this the new me. 23/7/25, my hopefully last day of chemo. Circled the calendar. I keep telling myself that if I can hold on, keep working and have chemotherapy and make it to that day all will be well. It’s not easy, working full time in a freezer (-20) when your body, mind and spirit are broken. But if I can just make it to the end, I will be saved. Please, don’t let this break me. For my family and for myself.

[Maddi_CCNSW]

Hi Richard

Welcome to Cancer Council's online Community, I hope you find it a supportive space.  Going through a cancer diagnosis and treatment can be tough, and this is a space that it's okay to vent.  I'm sure lots of other people will identify with what you're going through.  If you need someone to speak to and you live in Australia, please call our information and support line 13 11 20. They will be happy to provide you with support to get you through those difficult moments.  If you somewhere outside of Australia, please speak to your oncology team about organizations who provide support.  Lots of people seek support to help them get through the impact of a cancer diagnosis and treatment.   

[Isadora2021]

I’m so sorry. It sounds like you’re doing a great job of putting your head down and focussing on your end date  for treatment.  My mother has cancer in her family so it wasn’t such a huge shock for me, although very unwelcome  I’ve always thought I’ve inherited more of my motherr’s genes than my father’s. Darned it. 

I’m so glad you’ve been able to work through treatment. I was able to do so too with careful management of side effects. I think that really helped me. I hope it’s helping you too. It gave a good reason to get up and push through.  I loved my job (sounds very different from yours though!!!) and it helped give me purpose.

Wishing you the best and prayers up for successful treatment 🙏🌺